They say.

"Because Lady Gaga wasn't born with pink hair, and at some point you thought Ms. Drama Queen was sweet too." ~ Sha

Priorities: The lesson learned late.

Today, after a decent number of months through which given hell, the realization that the worse could yet strike, dawned upon me.

Seen that selfless little ant, who'd rather be nowhere but somewhere where she'd get a couple of sweet words and those sweet gestures of love? Not to mention, how she gives all that the little thing's capable of, and take in all that she couldn't ever bear, and then lift it all up with a pretty smile. 
Just for your sake, and the sake of that "love".
If you tried being like that little ant, sacrificing and giving things up for someone; eventually the circumstances would turn on you. Nobody sticks around for too long. There is no "Eternal Love", no "Forever and Always" and definitely no "Happy Ending". Every story has a turning point. People change. Chapters close. Stories end. And then you're stranded alone. 
Well, mostly.

Though I've learned, that there is this one person who would always be around. Somebody who could be regained if lost, and somebody who you could always depend upon. 
And that special somebody, is you. So cherish yourself.


I learned my lesson. And now, I own myself. Do you? 




Dated: 17th July 2011.

Mind Wanders.

It's funny how people say: "Oh don't worry, you'll stay in touch. Nothing would change!" 
I mean, really?
Everything changes. Because what you had? It no more remains. And all you leave behind are memories.
Yes, really.

The fairy.

It was a random day. And random days for me, yes, they mean I go sad for stupid reasons every once in a moment. Not even while, moment.
And this random day, I had a fairy cheer me up with poems. Imagine how very lucky I must be. Rather, analyze. xD 
Here:


Fairy:

''You have pages and pens and words to write, you have walls to stare at and calculators to make mistakes with, and you have random phone calls to recieve and chemistry to be mad over, and you have pillows to cuddle with and necklaces to break, and you have apple pies to eat and phone screens to curse and you have a keyboard to type and palak to eat, and you have books to endeavor and schools to think of and you have uniforms to wear and you have hair to flip and you have friends to text and most importantly, Tuba, you have WINGS. See. You have so many things. Please don't be sad. Pwease.<3 ''

 
Me:

''I have people who love me, and people who care. 

I have people who think, and people who share.

I have bubbles to blow, and nails to grow. 

And biscuits to gobble, and parties to throw.

I have souls to console, and stories to be told.

I have colours to explore, and flowers in galore.

I have an angel as a friend, do stay with me till my end? <3 '' 

Fairy:

''You see, now you see, all that you have,

No use spilling tears, no use being sad, 

And if we lived in a house made of our own love and care,

You'd be invited in joy and despair, 

And for sure I'll have a smile to lend, 

'Till the very end, my friend.'' 

Me:

''I see now I see, everything that's at its best.

And yes my dear friend,no, no more tears to be shed.

Just what you need to do, is adjust that halo above your head.

Since it perfectly defines, your angelicness that's divine.

And so now at the end,Alhamdulillah is, all that's left to be said. =) '' 

Jealous? No wonder. xD

Through the dull, tiring today.

Through a dull, tiring day like today, the three things that made me forget how tired I was, that made me forget how I'd spent my day only staring at the books and trying to squash things inside my head when all my brain was doing, was sleeping. And the three things that made me smile big (I mean the 'big' big -> =DD). Well, those three things were:


1) How when I was sitting in class, this new friend of mine came from the back, screaming "TUBA KHAAAN!" and surprised me with a bear hug. =D


2) When I went to tuition today, and there my sir's daughter recognized me as the ex-headgirl. And she shyly asked her mum to introduce her to me. Children are adorable. =]


3) Then, when I was coming back from tuition, my dad was continuously trying to make me smile saying "Arey meray pyaaray bachaaay! Baat karo mjseeey!!". He is the bestest dad eveerrrrr. <3


Excuse me now, I gotta go and smile some more. 
And I suggest you join me! LETS SMILE TOGETHER! =DD

A note to little one.

Hello there, little one.


It's been a while since we last talked. Do you realize that? Do you realize, little one, that as you go about your wonderful life; hopping, jumping and dancing in your own new world, you affect so many other lives that you have forgotten to think of? You should realize that, little one.


It's a big bad world, little one. The sign on the door to this world reads, "Trust At Your Own Risk", I read it myself. Once you understand that, baby, you will conquer half the world. Try to understand that, little one.


I just want you to keep a check on yourself  little one. Are you being fair to everyone who you have left behind? Who are now, 'your past'? Who have been there at every point for you, to make you happy, and to stand by you.


Once you lose someone permanently little one, it's hard to get them back. I don't want you to stumble and fall.
Take care of yourself little one, and always remember me. You have yet to grow up into a fine young lady.


Love.

To the untuned melodies, messed up chords.

To the untuned melodies, 

messed up chords;

she danced down the clouds, 

into the valley of swords.

Her bravery indulged with the mighty might,

and strength drenched so stunningly bright;

she danced down the clouds,

veiling the grace of her thoughts,

far away, from the worldly knots.

Into the creeps of the alien abode so dark,

where happiness just requires a tempting remark,

where love, is not more than a harassing lark,

where the beauty of all, does not need a mark,

she had danced down the clouds,

deaf now; as she'd pledged,

that she did not want a hark.

To the untuned melodies,

messed up chords;

she danced down the clouds.

Calling aloud; back to her lord.